A Journey of Growth and Gratitude
September 14, 2025 Giant Ball of Dirt From The Desk Of Gordon
A Day of Gratitude and Reflection
Today, September 14, 2025, I’m sitting on Benji’s Patio, soaking in the warmth of a sunny day, the scent of roasting potatoes filling the air. It’s 6:01 p.m., and I’m filled with gratitude for the simple moments: the crisp sunlight, the satisfying crunch of roasted potatoes, and the small act of returning a flashlight to a friend. These little things ground me, reminding me to stay present and appreciative.
I’m proud of myself today. I finally got back into cooking, something I haven’t done in a while. It felt good to chop, season, and create something nourishing. It’s a small victory, but it’s mine, and it’s a reminder that I can still cook—something I’d almost forgotten.
Emotions and Intentions
Today, I’m feeling present, fulfilled, and optimistic. There’s a quiet energy in me, a sense that I’m exactly where I need to be. My intention for the day is simple: relax. To let go of the hustle for a moment and just be. I’m connecting with the things that matter to me—good food, meaningful conversations with women in my life, and the joy of rediscovering passions like cooking. I’m especially thinking of J’aime, whose presence always brings a smile.
What’s Percolating in My Soul?
Lately, my mind has been buzzing with big ideas. I’m thinking about proposals—not just romantic ones, but proposals for life, for business, for impact. It’s time to generate cash again, to start living my best life. I dream of traveling, of buying Gregory’s property in Portugal, of creating something that leaves a mark on humanity. I want to know, deep in my bones, that I can do and create anything. That I can be the best version of myself.
This journey isn’t just about ambition—it’s about freedom. Freedom from the past, from old patterns, from relationships that no longer serve me. Tomorrow, I’m having an energy session to shift my perspective and keep moving forward. I’m proud of the choices I’ve been making lately, showing up authentically in the world, and I’m committed to keeping that momentum going.
Movement and Growth
I’ve been walking a lot—averaging 10 miles a day since leaving the hospital. It’s been a lifeline for my soul, a way to process, reflect, and stay grounded. Today, I’ve got 90 minutes to hit my 10-mile goal, and I’m determined to make it happen. A stroll is calling my name, maybe with a call to “New Natalie” along the way.
Exercise isn’t just about the miles. I’ve been mixing in push-ups, keeping my body strong as my mind and spirit grow. It’s all part of the process of becoming the best version of myself.
A Trip Down Memory Lane
Today, I took a detour through my old Instagram posts, a nostalgic dive into the past. It’s been seven years since I was with Natalie, and seeing those old photos brought back memories. I was clean-shaven back then, a contrast to the scruff I’ve rocked in recent years. Most of the women I’ve dated seemed to prefer the rugged look, but I’m enjoying the clean-shaven vibe now. It’s been years since I shaved daily, and it feels like a fresh start. Will I grow a beard again? Maybe. Probably not.
That trip down memory lane led me to Personalbrand.com—an impressive domain, and it looks like they’re crushing it. Natalie seems happy, and I’m genuinely glad for her. It’s a reminder of how much has changed in the six years since I left that relationship and Scottsdale. Life moves fast, and every decision shapes who we become.
The Power of Decisions
We all make choices that ripple through our lives. Some are painful, but they’re necessary. I’ve destroyed relationships along the way—not out of malice, but as part of the process of becoming my most authentic self. I’m learning to forgive myself for those moments and to forgive those who’ve drifted out of my life. We all make decisions, and we live with the results. That’s just part of the journey.
What I’m proud of is my willingness to keep betting on myself. Time and time again, I’ve taken risks, trusted my gut, and pushed forward. It’s not always easy, but it’s how I’ve grown, how I’ve learned what I’m truly made of.
Living Authentically
As I move forward, I’m leaning into the most authentic version of myself. I’m cherishing the friends I have now, the ones who see me for who I am. I’m practicing patience as I build a new life, step by step. There’s no rush—only the steady rhythm of creating, growing, and becoming. Into infinity and beyond, as I like to say. Boom, baby, boom.
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